12:45am I opened my facebook account, went through my inbox messages,
scrolled down a bit, searching for a conversation. I got it finally, opened it
and smiled. 13,383 messages it said. I kept on scrolling it till the end. It
said 19 november.2010 11.59AM Yes, this was the time, the GOLDEN TIME, when for
the first time I had a chat with you, when first time I talked to you, when
first time we exchanged numbers. I felt so so good reading our conversation,
reading your replies, reading how happy we both were having each other in our
life. I read your messages countless times. I felt so happy. I closed my eyes,
a tear dripped from my eye coz I know now we can never have that conversation
again coz now we aren't friends, coz now things have changed, coz now you are
changed. I loved you, you know that. I cared for you, you know that too. I did
so so much for you, you know that. I always stood by your side, I always
supported you, I always adviced you. Remember our late night conversations?
remember those never ending mid night gossips? Remember those laughters? Those
pranks? Those silly arguments? Those cute fights? I know you don't remember
anything coz if you did, you wouldn't have done what you doing right now. There
was a time when I used to be your foremost priority. When you used to tell me
about yourself, your life, everything. When you used to call me your
"SPECIAL person" and meant that too, so what happened now? Remember
when you were disheartened coz of that guy, it was me who used to console you
for hours, it was me who helped you with each and everything, from picture
collage to moral support, from birthday wishes to midnight cake, I did so so
many countless unmentionable small mere things for you not only coz I cared for
you but also coz I loved you to the core, from the bottom of my heart but what
did you do? Did you do the same things for me being my special friend? When I
had my exams you didn't even bother to wish me When I was distressed and needed
a friend, even contacted you, you didn't made any move to help me or advice me
Whenever I needed you, you were never with me, NEVER You had time to be on you
had no time You were busy whenever I needed you You had time for everyone
except me And the worse, after all what you did and were doing, yes I think I
deserved it completely. Yes, I deserve to be punished to make you my special
friend I deserve to be punished for giving you all that you never deserved I
deserve to be punished for choosing a really wrong person as my friend and yes,
I REGRET MY DECISION for choosing you as my special friend Today I see you on
facebook, you are happy, glad, you enjoying your life and my presence or
absence have simply no value in your life Now I am a bloody nobody for you You
don't even ask if I am alive or not Sorry but now I am so hurt that my doors
are closed not just for you but for every new person who tries to be my friend
Now I am scared coz I don't have the capacity to get hurt anymore Thanks to you
for letting me know again why GIRLS shouldn't be trusted Thanks to you for
opening my eyes You always said that you are different from other girls, Yes,
you are very very different coz other girls didn't hurt me the way you did You
did hurt me and hurting someone is the worse thing anyone can do Now I have
broken all contacts with you, It's been months I haven't contacted you and I
won't contact you ever now Yes you did contact me by forwarding me Diwali
messages but I am sorry, I am too hurt to reply you Last but not the least, I
am going, going from your life Will try to forgive you if I can, not coz you
deserve it but coz I deserve freedom from your hurt Good bye my Special friend
Good bye